Lately a lot of people have started to notice my weight loss. Over the last 6 years, I’ve dropped almost 80 pounds, almost 60 of those since February 2013.
So, what’s different now? Why did no one notice when I dropped 20 pounds over 5 weeks last February? As I slowly worked down from a size 16 to now a 6?
The psychology of weight loss is most interesting to me. I wish I saw myself through the eyes of someone else. I always think about my true goal as being able to love what I see in the mirror, or see myself the way my fiancé sees me. He tells me I’m beautiful everyday. He told me it everyday before I started losing weight, before I even ever considered REALLY putting in the effort.
Being with Ron makes me want to be the best version of myself, I guess. When I realized I wanted to marry him, I realized I wanted to look great at our wedding, and that’s when I really got serious about my weight loss. He has been beside me, encouraging me, exercising with me, cooking and eating healthy meals the whole way. I’m thankful for his support, but why can’t I see myself through his eyes?
I love hearing the remarks from people I haven’t seen in a little while. It’s encouraging. I still don’t see it.
However, my future mother-in-law makes a lot of comments about how I’ve gotten “too thin.” It kills me. Too thin? I still am not at a “healthy” weight for my height. I have lost all of my weight by managing my portions and adding exercise, and there is NOTHING “too thin” about me or my weight. I have a BMI of 25.1 which is medically “overweight.” I don’t feel fat really my any means, but I still carry a lot of excess weight in my stomach and thighs. I’m only looking to lose 15-ish more pounds - it would put me in the more middle-range of a healthy BMI.
Anyway, rant over. Just feelings.
Here’s a photo of my in my new (size 4) dress! It’s a little tight, but I love it anyway. It’s fitted in the waist and flairs out just a bit over the stomach (which is ideal for me, ha). My friend Maggie is promoting #horizontalstripes #healthybodyimage, so here ya go!